Clean up, Clean up, Everybody Everywhere

Keeping my sons' room tidy. It is a part of motherhood I find absolutely excruciating. It doesn't seem like it should be that big of a deal, but it looms over me like a bunch of dementors sucking the life out of me. No matter how many times I reorganize and put things away it ends up looking like a tornado hit it.

Right now, I just...

Dear Blog

My night.

I try to stay away from you,
but I just can't.
There's something pulling me to post, even though I haven't done it perfectly, or regularly.
I want to give up,
to pretend I never made you...

After 4 Months of non-blogging

I'm putting up this picture I took over the summer to remind myself to be open to the beauty of new things.  Sometimes the openness applies to old things too-- like writing in this here blog.

After four months of not posting, it's so easy to just keep on not posting, to remain in the void, keep the status quo, continue closing off.  Today, my victory is breaking out. Writing today just to write because I'm tired of not writing.  So, thanks for obliging, dear blog.

Mug Love

When I first got this mug from a friend at my limo-sushi-dancing-regretfully-over-alcohol-fuelled 40th birthday party, I have to admit, I didn't "love" it.

Here's a gift-giving tip. If you're a woman just turning 40…

I Can Do Hard Things

While life on the outside is good these days-- very good, in fact--  in these pages, I make it no secret that with regard to my inner life/emotional life, I am experiencing a few hiccups.  So, after writing about embarking on a stressful speech therapeutic journey with my son, I was looking forward to a chill Monday night tennis class.  Compared to the angst I was experiencing over this speech stuff, I thought, tennis is gonna be a piece of cake.  Turns out, God had other plans...

The Lidcombe Anxiety

If I know one truth about myself, it's that with the exception of feeding and clothing myself and my children, there are very few things I manage to do everyday.  I don't even wash my face everyday.  And sometimes, (eek) I even forget to brush my teeth.

I am really freaking out right now...

Today, I Will Do the Thing That I Want to Do

For five months I've been doing everything but posting here.  I had lost something that gave me the courage, the boldness, the confidence to do the thing that I love to do, but often find scary...