Food. I can't do it like normal people. Especially problematic is recreational sugar. It's a drug to me. It sets up a craving and once I have it, I need more. And it's even worse when my head is in a good place and I think,"I can handle it."
I may be able to eat sugar moderately for a day, or even two or three, but sooner or later I will want more and not be able to stop. In the 15 years that I've been aware I have the disease of compulsive overeating, the only thing that makes me feel like a normal person is practicing a program of recovery. A main component of which is writing. Writing keeps me present. Accountable. It keeps me grounded. Writing gets all the crap of the day and my thoughts about it out of my head. I have learned that if I don't do this, I will eat over it. It's as simple as that. This blog is an exercise for me. As long as I keep writing I have hope for recovery. I invite anyone who can relate to post here.