So, I think I'm finally starting to understand now. I can't wait until I "have my shit" totally together to write in this thing. If I do, then I will never write in it.
Kind of like the last few months. I've got to just get it down someplace and out of my head. Here's where the thinking comes from though... I think I need to be able to organize my thoughts in a coherent way, so that I might be able to help people who read this. As I read someplace, effective personal essay writing isn't just a recounting of events. I must find the "wisdom" and "knowing" in my experiences in order to pass along something worthwhile. But fact is... as a popular program says "I cannot transmit something I haven't got." I cannot help ANYONE, until I first help MYSELF. For that reason, I have decided to screw the perfect (or as close to perfect as I can get) blog entry. I'm just gonna write. If it helps no one else, it will help me.