I Want a Black-Belt in "Mommy"

A friend announced that her son just got his yellow belt in Karate and I felt myself getting jealous.  I thought, "Why in the world should I be jealous of that?"  Am I jealous because I want my son to try martial arts, and he has absolutely no interest?  Maybe.  But as I thought about it more, I realized that what I was really jealous of was...

Immediately Awesome

I don't know if you can relate, but the reoccurring thought in my head that I have to be immediately awesome at something, even if I've never done it before is a paralyzing force. So paralyzing that it...

Okay, so I ate the Easter candy

Yes, I'm fresh off a binge. Damn it. I was doing so well for a number of weeks.  My downfall... going out to dinner with my family for Easter and ordering cake.  Man... I should have known better.  The slices were enormous and decadent. They were big enough that two people sharing it could each eat too much and then still have a decent size piece left-over.  Once I pushed my fork through...

Not gonna eat the Easter candy

Today is going to be one of the hardest days of the year for me food-wise.  I feel like I'm missing out if I don't get to indulge in the Easter candy, or the Valentines day candy, or Halloween candy.  Many a holiday, I have used the next day 50% off holiday candy discount as a justification to purchase and overindulge.  Maybe it won't be as hard for me today after my little slip yesterday.  Here's hoping....

Sanity and Peace Around Food

It was my first day back to the gym after about six days.  Because my body was used to not moving, it was starting to get used to it.  I also noticed that a little bit of sugar and definitely more carbohydrates were sneaking into my diet.  Not a good sign.  Usually, this is time I would just throw it all away--

I Don't Hate Myself Today

I don't hate myself today.  In fact, I haven't hated myself in 44 days.  February 7th, 2013. That's the day I finally became ready and willing to do the things I need to do to take care of myself;  for starters... getting much needed exercise on a regular basis, making food choices that feed my body, instead of...

Bare Minimums

Bare minimums.  That's all I could handle this morning. Get up.  Get coffee.  Feed kids. Get them dressed. Get me dressed.  Pack lunch. Get in car... drive.  Drop off child at school.  It took every ounce of energy I possessed...