Why I Blog

When I decided to write a blog, it was not my intention for it to be only about food, body issues and mom stories.  I envisioned it to be a place I could write thoughtfully about whatever came up in my life and was of interest to me at the moment; movies, television, current events, etc. I wanted to challenge myself to write more purposefully and in a more coherent, effective way, versus my journal writing which is more "stream of consciousness."  I wanted to go one step beyond the polite...

My last blog title was a lie

I'm pretty sure I will never "transition out" of sweet-seeking.  It's how my eating disorder manifests itself.  It's what I do.  You could say I have a "sweet tooth," but that would be putting it mildly.  It would be more accurate to say I am a sugar "addict." Even in recovery,  there will be times when I will crave something sweet.  I accept this as fact.  The difference is, I no longer crave sugar every day, multiple times a day. This is a miracle.

Transition out of "sweet-seeking"

My 6-year-old son started first grade yesterday, and it did not go as easily as I expected.  I guess I thought that since Kindergarden went really well-- he had lots of friends, and did well academically,  that he wouldn't have a problem.  Yep.  I was wrong...

Banned from Cupcake Wars

So one of the things that is different today-- I have banned myself from watching the baking competition show Cupcake Wars on the Food Network.  It used to be one of my all-time-favorite shows, indeed.

When I was single and childless I wrote shows for this network and that's when I learned about the term "food porn." It's the term TV execs...

Can't do another diet

It is my opinion that for most of us with lifelong (or at least adulthood-long) battles with our weight-- that it isn't due to the lack of awesome information out there about diet and exercise programs that all work if you do them-- but rather...

Deliberate life full of purpose

This is me four years ago, sprawled out in the waters of St. Barts.  It was one of the most peaceful, most contented moments I can remember. 

It is with great humility that I write these posts about freedom from recreational sugar.  I do not claim to be an "expert" in any sense of the word.  I'm not special.  I am posting this to say...

How I Went (now) 49 Days Without Sugar

When I say "sugar" I am referring to the kinds of junk food I have discovered over the years that I cannot "eat like a lady;" cookies, cupcakes, candy bars, carmel popcorn, etc.  I refer to this as "recreational sugar." I don't mean that I consume no sugar whatsoever.  I am aware there is sugar in all kinds of foods like fruit, crackers, ketchup, some yogurts, etc.  These are not the foods I'm referring to.  One of the things I did...

48 Days of Freedom without Sugar

I never thought I could last 48 days without "recreational" sugar (cakes, cookies, cupcakes, pie, ice cream, candy, chocolate, etc.), nor did I think I'd ever want to.  But over these past 6 weeks, I've experienced what can only be described as a miracle; the freedom from the compulsion to overeat/binge on sugar...

What was once a "slice," today is gone.

So, remember when I wrote just 2 posts ago about that slice of Mommy-heaven... getting a 30 minute break while I watched both my kids take swim lessons?  Well, that's gone down the tubes.  My 3-year old has decided he doesn't want to swim and refuses to get in the pool for the lesson.  (big breath in, big breath out... sigh) Today, I'm just happy I enjoyed those 3 times when he did.  I'm not sure how I'm going...

I am a Part of Community Art

Yesterday, I was outside our local kick-butt bookstore, and I found this cool art installation.  It's a chalkboard with the simple phrase "One day I will...." Passersby are invited to fill-in the blanks.  It's an off-shoot of Candy Chang's famous...